today was a really nice day. i woke up early, took chicho out for a quick stroll, met with some married friends (such a great couple awww) who took me with them to a class or service at the eckankar center. in a nutshell, eckankar is a spiritual organization welcoming people of all faiths to meet & discuss different topics & share experiences. this was my first time so i'm really not the expert here, and i'll just refer you to their site if u want to know more:
what is eckankar?
ok so for helpful quotes go to:
eckankar quotes
each time u refresh the page a different quote comes up...
so today's topic happened to be "the art of SURRENDER" and i don't think there could have been a better topic for me right now. alright, is this all getting way too fucking hippie dippy silly for you? ok, let me sum it up somehow... it was basically all about how holding on to something too tightly or wanting something too badly works against us in many cases, where we don't listen to what's really going on, and we put too much effort into "it" & don't leave "it" enough space to happen. makes sense? fuck, i'm sure guilty of doing that. anyhew, so it was all about how sometimes you just have to let go & give in for good things to come together in your favor. maybe they won't come together as "expected" but they will come together in a more fitting way. so here it goes again: me & my fucking expectations! i think i'm open & chill but in the back of my head i often hold on to some sorta misleading expectations that fucking fuck me the fuck up. urgh! anyhew... not knowing what the solution is or not finding an immediate or even practical way out is ok --um yeah suuuuure, easier said than done urgh... where was i? oh, so just listen! don't get carried away & BE AWARE, so that you can allow enough love & understanding in your life to face the obstacles & challenges at hand. being able to accept also depends on one's ability to surrender. i swear i'm not high here!!! honestly, it's obvious, and i know that already, i'm not a fucking retard mmmKay. but i've gotten so caught up in my own shit & i've been so bad at listening & letting go, that it's been really helpful for me to discuss this today, or to hear people talk about this in a place of peace & serenity. why oh why do i get so carried away sometimes? it kills me! i've been pretty desperate lately, like terrified of being cast aside, or left behind somehow. so i did the mature thing to do of course: i freaked the fuck out!!! i acted out in the most gracious ways. i didn't do anything i wouldn't be proud of. errr. wa-waaaaaaah!
this made me think about how much more i need to chill, take more breathers, be & let be. i realize how hard i am on myself & how unfairly hard i am on the ones i open up to. and all that is fine, as long as i start making concrete efforts to improve instead of repeating these twisted ways of mine. breaking the recurring patterns... work work work. love love love. surrrrrennndaaaaaaa. hummmmmm ginggg gonggg gang gang gang... galang galang galang YA-YA-HEEEEY remember this? here u go:
what is eckankar?
ok so for helpful quotes go to:
eckankar quotes
each time u refresh the page a different quote comes up...
so today's topic happened to be "the art of SURRENDER" and i don't think there could have been a better topic for me right now. alright, is this all getting way too fucking hippie dippy silly for you? ok, let me sum it up somehow... it was basically all about how holding on to something too tightly or wanting something too badly works against us in many cases, where we don't listen to what's really going on, and we put too much effort into "it" & don't leave "it" enough space to happen. makes sense? fuck, i'm sure guilty of doing that. anyhew, so it was all about how sometimes you just have to let go & give in for good things to come together in your favor. maybe they won't come together as "expected" but they will come together in a more fitting way. so here it goes again: me & my fucking expectations! i think i'm open & chill but in the back of my head i often hold on to some sorta misleading expectations that fucking fuck me the fuck up. urgh! anyhew... not knowing what the solution is or not finding an immediate or even practical way out is ok --um yeah suuuuure, easier said than done urgh... where was i? oh, so just listen! don't get carried away & BE AWARE, so that you can allow enough love & understanding in your life to face the obstacles & challenges at hand. being able to accept also depends on one's ability to surrender. i swear i'm not high here!!! honestly, it's obvious, and i know that already, i'm not a fucking retard mmmKay. but i've gotten so caught up in my own shit & i've been so bad at listening & letting go, that it's been really helpful for me to discuss this today, or to hear people talk about this in a place of peace & serenity. why oh why do i get so carried away sometimes? it kills me! i've been pretty desperate lately, like terrified of being cast aside, or left behind somehow. so i did the mature thing to do of course: i freaked the fuck out!!! i acted out in the most gracious ways. i didn't do anything i wouldn't be proud of. errr. wa-waaaaaaah!
this made me think about how much more i need to chill, take more breathers, be & let be. i realize how hard i am on myself & how unfairly hard i am on the ones i open up to. and all that is fine, as long as i start making concrete efforts to improve instead of repeating these twisted ways of mine. breaking the recurring patterns... work work work. love love love. surrrrrennndaaaaaaa. hummmmmm ginggg gonggg gang gang gang... galang galang galang YA-YA-HEEEEY remember this? here u go:
so i had the best lunch today. i told a few of you how i had the best club sandwich ever in LA earlier this week, at this place called Square One, on fountain avenue just west of vermont (across the street from the spooky scientology center). Square One has been around for about a year & has gotten the best reviews from the likes of a pullitzer prize award winner food critic dude. it's small, simple, no attitude. it reminds me of this place i had a nice brunch at last year in hays valley (san francisco)... Square One has the best bacon i've ever had, for real!!! the cool thing about it is that it's just off the beaten track. close enough to hollywood, los feliz, silver lake, echo park, but without all the fucking hipsters & all the fucking fuss & the big designer sunglasses & all that crap...
definitely get something with bacon in it or on the side. their fruit bowl is delicious. their french toast made of brioche with the bourbon pecan topping & vanilla whipped cream is to die for!!! the baked egg dishes come in hot skillets. the portions aren't big but just the right size. anyhew, if you haven't tried it yet, GO!!! check out the reviews in the press section of the Square One website; they don't lie! if i had to compare it to another east-side-ish place it would be Auntie Em's in eagle rock.
